Mondays

Rough weekend…

Michael and I were fighting colds.  His is much better today, but I think he was far sicker than I was.  He coughed so hard his ribs are hurting.  He took NyQuil, and still coughed.  Poor thing.  Sunday, for no reason whatsoever, I got a migraine. so I spent the afternoon/evening in a cloud of migraine medicine.

Ok, I want a do-over!  Can we rewind back to Friday and start the weekend over?  Wishful thinking!

So this morning, as I meander through my to-do list, I’m wishful thinking of other things too:

  • I wish Karen’s computer were closer so I could figure out what’s wrong with it…
  • I wish Cherie, me and Dawn could have our ‘girls night out’ like we’ve been trying to plan for ages…
  • I wish I felt more productive today…
  • I wish my daughter would talk to me…
  • I wish I could have a do-over on my entire life with the kids, I’d be stronger, I’d be less intimidated by others, and I’d make sure they knew I loved them no matter what and that I didn’t abandon them…
  • I wish, I wish….   I wish…. I wish I’d stop feeling guilty for not being allowed to be a part of my kids’ lives and I wish they could see through my eyes how I feel about them.

Personal note to my daughter: I read your blog post this morning, and you are NOT inadequate! You’re just overwhelmed and tired.  Be kind to yourself and hey, if the dishes don’t get done – its no big deal!  I love you, Mom

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